Been awhile since I wrote hasn't it? xP I am still doing excersises so that is good, I mostly walk/jog in the park for 40 to 60 minutes and then come home for some punching-bag practice It feels pretty darn good, sadly I have to get a stronger will when it comes to eating ; Still is been going pretty well for me except the weighting lift part that I overdid...I was in pain for 3 straight days so have to take it more easy in that respect.

I been hanging out more with friends, found an old friend of mine in the mall that I took classes with a long time ago and after awhile lost contact with her. Been hanging out with her and things are as when we first met so that is cool Pretty down to earth person which is good ^_^ Then there is the other side of things with another friend that I had lost contact with, this one told me not to call her since she got married, which I do respect and haven't called her since xP The other people are my male friends been hanging out with them more than usual, playing games and so on.

Now I am in the job search, even though I have money it won't last forever so trying to get a job to have a steady income and stop feeling useless and bored by not really having anything to do till August (when I start University again).

As always, the explination for the name to this journal. I was out saturday hanging with the guys in Jungle (a nice pub with pool tables (billards) and stuff) watching the Manny Pacquiao vs Ricky Hatton fight and boy Hatton probably visit the stars for awhile after the punch of Manny O_o It was a beating of epic proportion that just seeing the punch you swear you can feel the hit. I am glad I didn't buy the fight for my place and just went to the pub (which the entrance was jsut 5 dollars, pretty cheap) cause that was a really short fight O_O.

Now to wait for the next big fight that involve Cotto and Clottey

So today was the day of truth...time to weight myself! I did and boy was I happy, I burn 6 lb this past days and it feels really good to see the number in the scale down It made me feel the hard-work is useful and that I don't NECESARY need to eat salads for diets, just moderation and exchange cookies and stuff with healthier things (aka healthy cookies like the 100 calorie cookie packs with no fat, fruits, etc, etc). I still eat normal food one day a week to not get this super cravings.

The excersises have been working really good too. Feel stronger (though I STILL suck at push-ups xP). Gotten motivation from Zanny watching my broadcast xP Yesterday I broke two records in the arcade, one in the punching machine (that you punch and it register how hard you hit it). Felt good breaking that record on the first punch, sadly I couldn't improve on it xP The second was on the motion sensing boxing game (Mocap Boxing) from Konami, I am the first to beat the game in the arcade and got the title of 'Champ' Doubt that record will be broken soon (except by me xP).

So, is been a good week and I hope to continue losing weight, as you probaly figure out 'Burn Baby, Burn' is about burning out the fat in my body xP

Before any starts thinking this has to do with a bad thing, or me being negative, is not, is about my excersises and diet. As most know I pick excersises again, I would normaly broadcast them but in day 3 and 4 I couldn't cause yesterday (day 3) I had visit over (still did them but my friend was in my room) and today (day 4) I decide to take it to the park. Decide to mix in walking/jogging into my training and will go to the park on Tuesday and Friday. Going to the park was a nice change, it was relaxing to walk while hearing music and just think things ^_^. I walk/jog for an hour (mostly walk and jog here and there). I thought a pair of girls was checking me out since I was walking behind them and they would glance back every minute or so, of course I wasn't planning to hit on them and could careless if it was the guy behind me...if there was someone behind me since there wasn't xP...but then they left so they might think I was a stalker *LMAO* That actually made me chuckle instead of make me feel bad xP So funny experience there...but is nice to see people doing excersise too

As for the name of the journal, last time it was about me having won and lost in the end (Something silly in all honesty). This time is about the weight...my pants have started to fall down O_O Jogging was a pain cause my pants would begin to slide so I had to hold them while jogging ; I mean is nice to feel ones clothes is beginig to become big...but I really have to start using belts more often before I don't want to be walking down the mall and suddenly my pants drop...I am SO not into the whole thing of your pants being around your knees like some rappers O_O

I been having low self-esteem this days cause of past events, of course I try to raise it and keep myself good...kind of hard to but oh well. This lead me to do something I rarely do, go to a bar. The brother of a friend that was giving me a haircut began talking about it and I thought 'Maybe I can go to it and get my self-esteem up if I manage to talk to people or get notice'...of course I forgot that each time I go to a bar this idea of mine back-fires in very, VERY bad way. I wasn't looking for a date, phone number or anything (since was just wanting to speak to people, be it a girl or a guy, just get the feeling of being social again...but I'll be honest rather it was a girl I could manage to talk to xP), giving what happen to me I am really not interested in anything like that right now, just a simply small talk to raise my self-esteem and confidence in that I can still be social.

After telling them 'Heck, I'll go wtih you guys' I get home and prepare, put on perfume some nice clothes and time to hit the road with them. We arrive at the place and it was nice looking actually, nice atmospher, and to my surprise, they didn't allow smoking inside so that was a blessing. We got a pool table to begin playing and night started cool, then females began passing by which should be a good sign, but then I remember 'I am the ugly ducky of this group, the 'big' guy...great' and beside that I am shy when in front of someone and hard to break ice. Once I start talking I am a bit more relax...but still to shy to began talking. The guys around me go lucky, girls notice them and began talking to them, they got some phone numbers...I got a 'lease move' so she could take her shot in pool.

As for the winning is losing, I was playing pool to win since one girl challenge the table...but once I won the guy with the car told me his brother and some other guy where going to play double with them...so I won the round but still lost in the end in being able to play with them *Shrugs* I am so sticking with casino and karaoke bars from now on O_O At least in Karaoke I get laugh at by girls and anyone else in the place or they are so drunk they think I sing ok xP In casino I get to laugh with any tourist that comes by and either watch them win big or lose big xP

Still the events didn't actually make me lose my self-esteem or confidence at all...for some reason this state of mind I was in made me better in pool that I regularly am and was playing pretty good *LOL* So that felt nice and in all honesty I was a fool to let my friend talk me into thinking of hitting on girls now when I am clearly not ready for this stuff and rather take it easy.

This is my second day doing my excersise routine. I had to change a bit the whole broadcasting hours (since I am waking up at 8:30) and doing the broadcasting at 10:30 I am also recording it so it can actually be watch at anytime (not that I think anyone wants to watch it *lol*). Also started on my diet alongside the alli pills and hope to keep at it steady ^_^.

I did went to the casino last night and won 40 dollars So that was pretty good and hopefully my luck continues onwards *lol* I am still friends with everyone regarding of the events that transpire, though I am sure I'll be ignore a bit more now but that is cool xP Mmmm...well not much else I can say since not much else has happen